after any thing has once happened and fairly subsided, to make any allusion to its former existence. I never, therefore, talked to the Duchesse about our ancient égaremens. I spoke, this morning, of the marriage of one person, the death of another, and lastly, the departure of my individual self. "When do you go?" she said, eagerly. "In two days: my departure will be softened, if I can execute any commissions in England for Madame." "None," said she; and then in a low tone (that none of the idlers, who were always found at her morning levées, should hear), she added, you will receive a note from me this evening." I bowed, changed the conversation, and withdrew. I dined in my own rooms, and spent the evening in looking over the various billets-doux, received during my séjour at Paris. “Where shall I put all these locks of hair?" asked Bedos, opening a drawer full. "Into my scrap-book." "And all these letters ?" "Into the fire." I was just getting into bed when the Duchesse de Perpignan's note arrived-it was as follows:--- I "MY DEAR Friend, "For that word, so doubtful in our language, may at least call you in your own. I am unwilling that you should leave this country with those sentiments you now entertain of me, unaltered, yet I cannot imagine any form of words of sufficient magic to change them. Oh! if you knew how much I am to be pitied; if you could look for one moment into this lonely and blighted heart; if you could trace, step by step, the progress I have made in folly and sin, you would see how much of what you now condemn and despise I have owed to circumstances, rather than to the vice of my disposition. I was born a beauty, educated a beauty, owed fame, rank, power to beauty; and it is to the advantages I have derived from person that I owe the ruin of my mind. You have seen how much I now derive from art. I loathe myself as I write that sentence; but no matter: from that moment you loathed me too. You did not take into consideration, that I had been living on excitement all my youth, and that in my maturer years I could not relinquish it. I had reigned by my attractions, and I thought every art preferable to resigning my empire: but in feeding my vanity, I had not been able to stifle the dictates of my heart. Love is so natural to a woman, that she is scarcely a woman who resists it: but in me it has been a sentiment, not a passion. "Sentiment, then, and vanity, have been my seducers. I said, that I owed my errors to cir cumstances, not to nature. You will say, that in confessing love and vanity to be my seducers, I contradict this assertion-you are mistaken. I mean, that though vanity and sentiment were in me, yet the scenes in which I have been placed, and the events which I have witnessed, gave to those latent currents of action a wrong and a dangerous direction. I was formed to love; for one whom I did love I could have made every sacrifice. I married a man I hated, and I only learnt the depths of my heart when it was too late. "Enough of this; you will leave this country; we shall never meet again-never! You may return to Paris, but I shall then be no more; n'importe-I shall be unchanged to the last. Je mourrai en reine. "As a latest pledge of what I have felt for you, I send you the enclosed chain and ring; as a latest favour, I request you to wear them for six months, and, above all, for two hours in the Tuileries tomorrow. You will laugh at this request: it seems idle and romantic-perhaps it is so. Love has many exaggerations in sentiment, which reason would despise. What wonder, then, that mine, above that of all others, should conceive them? You will not, I know, deny this request. Farewell!—in this world we shall never meet again, and I believe not in the existence of another. Farewell! "E. P." "A most sensible effusion," said I to myself, when I had read this billet; "and yet, after all, it shows more feeling and more character than I could have supposed she possessed." I took up the chain : it was of Maltese workmanship; not very handsome, nor, indeed, in any way remarkable, except for a plain hair ring which was attached to it, and which I found myself unable to take off, without breaking. "It is a very singular request," thought I, "but then it comes from a very singular person; and as it rather partakes of adventure and intrigue, I shall at all events appear in the Tuileries, to-morrow, chained and ringed.” |