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The subjects are a very good index of the range | too loud for the church) cease at noou. The of thought in the senior class of an American graduates then repair to Alumni Hall, where college. Their titles easily show in many cases the faculty have provided a dinner (which the the unpracticed pens of the writers. Here are graduating class pay for) of cold meats and otha few: "Justice and Benevolence," "Intangi- er refreshments-a dinner not too bountiful for ble Influences," ," "Thomas Carlyle," ""Edmund digestion, but nevertheless very pleasant to sit Burke," "The Necessity of Adherence to Writ- down to, since you have some five hundred men ten Law," "Hildebrand," "Responsibility of to keep you company. This is the only relic Liberty," "The Power of the Youthful Spirit," of the ancient commons, around which cluster "The Individual," ," "Thomas Arnold," "Big- some of the most jovial traditions of University otry," "Political Education," "The Causes of life. Take a look now over this eager, eating National Decline," "The Personal Relations of assemblage. You will seldom find a more manthe Scholar to Truth," "Rivers of Lethe." But ly, refined, intelligent company than are here the quill of the rhetorical professor has been met together. They may be careworn; but the drawn through many an inflated sentence, has eye glows with enthusiasm; the frame shows taken the bombast out of many a glowing period. activity and vigor; they strike you as a body Hence there is often an awkward, constrained of earnest, thinking, believing men. style about these orations which shames no one more than the writers themselves when they have laid them away a few weeks in the drawer. The delivery, too, bears the marks of special training; there is a nervous working of the elbows; the hands are every where but in the right place; every expressive word has a gesture. There are exceptions to this; a young man often greatly distinguishes himself, and when he does none are quicker to discern and applaud than his cultivated audience. But usually Alma Mater wins few honors upon the Commencement stage. This never lessens the audience; and each young man has the knowledge that he will perhaps never address a larger and more attentive crowd in his life.

The flow of speaking and the music (which ranks somewhere between a caterwaul and the thunders of an organ, always harsh, dissonant,

Returning to the church, we listen eagerly to the pathetic, touching words of the valedictorian as he says farewell for the class to one after another of the men who have imparted somewhat of their own intellectual life to their pupils. The degrees (Yale is chary of these) are then conferred; the President pronounces the benediction; the band strikes up a lively air, while the dense crowd slowly presses its way to the door by every available means, just in season to catch a glimpse of the setting sun; in a few minutes the green is deserted; at sundown the neighboring streets have regained their wonted quietness. Commencement Week is over. No, not quite over. The President holds a levee at his house in the evening, to which all graduates are invited, and there are numerous private parties and social tea-drinkings all over the city.

THE SMALL HOUSE AT ALLINGTON.

"HAV

CHAPTER XXXVII.

AN OLD MAN'S COMPLAINT.

AVE you been thinking again of what I was saying to you, Bell?" Bernard said to his cousin one morning.

"Thinking of it, Bernard? Why should I think more of it? I had hoped that you had forgotten it yourself."

"No," he said; "I am not so easy-hearted as that. I can not look on such a thing as I would the purchase of a horse, which I could give up without sorrow if I found that the animal was too costly for my purse. I did not tell you that I loved you till I was sure of myself, and having made myself sure I can not change at all."

"And yet you would have me change."

"Yes, of course I would. If your heart be free now, it must of course be changed before you come to love any man. Such change as that is to be looked for. But when you have loved, then it will not be easy to change you." "But I have not."

"Then I have a right to hope. I have been hanging on here, Bell, longer than I ought to

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have done, because I could not bring myself to leave you without speaking of this again. I did not wish to seem to you to be importunate-” "If you could only believe me in what I say.' "It is not that I do not believe. I am not a puppy or a fool, to flatter myself that you must be in love with me. I believe you well enough. But still it is possible that your mind may alter." "It is impossible."

also, if she declined to assist him with all her influence as a mother.

"Why should they not both marry?" he said to himself. Lord De Guest's offer as to young Eames had been very generous. As he had then declared, he had not been able to express his own opinion at once; but on thinking over what the earl had said, he had found himself. very willing to heal the family wound in the

"I do not know whether my uncle or your manner proposed, if any such healing might be mother have spoken to you about this."

"Such speaking would have no effect." In fact her mother had spoken to her, but she truly said that such speaking would have no effect. If her cousin could not win the battle by his own skill, he might have been quite sure, looking at her character as it was known to him, that he would not be able to win it by the skill of others.

"We have all been made very unhappy," he went on to say, "by this calamity which has fallen on poor Lily."

"And because she has been deceived by the man she did love, I am to make matters square by marrying a man I-" and then she paused. "Dear Bernard, you should not drive me to say words which will sound harsh to you."

"No words can be harsher than those which you have already spoken. But, Bell, at any rate, you may listen to me."

Then he told her how desirable it was with reference to all the concerns of the Dale family that she should endeavor to look favorably on his proposition. It would be good for them all, he said, especially for Lily, as to whom, at the present moment, their uncle felt so kindly. He, as Bernard pleaded, was so anxious at heart for this marriage that he would do any thing that was asked of him if he were gratified. But if he were not gratified in this, he would feel that he had ground for displeasure.

Bell, as she had been desired to listen, did listen very patiently. But when her cousin had finished, her answer was very short. "Nothing that my uncle can say, or think, or do, can make any difference in this," said she.

possible. That, however, could not be done quite as yet. When the time should come, and he thought it might come soon-perhaps in the spring when the days should be fine and the evenings again long-he would be willing to take his share with the earl in establishing that new household. To Crosbie he had refused to give any thing, and there was upon his conscience a shade of remorse in that he had so refused. But if Lily could be brought to love this other man, he would be more open-handed. She should have her share as though she was in fact his daughter. But then, if he intended to do so much for them at the Small House, should not they in return do something also for him? So thinking, he went again to his sister-in-law, determined to explain his views, even though it might be at the risk of some hard words between them. As regarded himself, he did not much care for hard words spoken to him. He almost expected that people's words should be hard and painful. He did not look for the comfort of affectionate soft greetings, and perhaps would not have appreciated them had they come to him. He caught Mrs. Dale walking in the garden, and brought her into his own room, feeling that he had a better chance there than in her own house. She, with an old dislike to being lectured in that room, had endeavored to avoid the interview, but had failed.

"So I met John Eames at the manor," he had said to her in the garden.

"Ah, yes; and how did he get on there? I can not conceive poor Johnny keeping holiday with the earl and his sister. How did he behave to them, and how did they behave to

"You will think nothing, then, of the happi- him?” ness of others."

"I would not marry a man I did not love to insure any amount of happiness to others—at least I know I ought not to do so. But I do not believe I should insure any one's happiness by this marriage. Certainly not yours."

After this Bernard had acknowledged to himself that the difficulties in his way were great. "I will go away till next autumn," he said to his uncle.

"If you would give up your profession and remain here, she would not be so perverse.'

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"I can not do that, Sir. I can not risk the well-being of my life on such a chance." Then his uncle had been angry with him, as well as with his niece. In his anger he determined that he would go again to his sister-in-law, and, after some unreasonable fashion, he resolved that it would become him to be very angry with her

"I can assure you he was very much at home there."

"Was he, indeed? Well, I hope it will do him good. He is, I'm sure, a very good young man; only rather awkward."

You'll

"I didn't think him awkward at all. find, Mary, that he'll do very well; a great deal better than his father did."

"I'm sure I hope he may." After that Mrs. Dale made her attempt to escape; but the squire had taken her prisoner, and led her captive into the house. "Mary," he said, as soon as he had induced her to sit down, "it is time that this should be settled between my nephew and niece." "I am afraid there will be nothing to set

tle."

"What do you mean; that you disapprove of it?"

"By no means-personally. I should ap

prove of it very strongly. But that has nothing and respect will not give you a right to dispose to do with the question." of their hands."

"Yes, it has. I beg your pardon, but it must have, and should have a great deal to do with it. Of course, I am not saying that any body should now ever be compelled to marry any body."

"I hope not."

"I never said that they ought, and never thought so. But I do think that the wishes of all her family should have very great weight with a girl that has been well brought up."

"Who wants to dispose of their hands?"

"There are some things in which I think no uncle-no parent-should interfere, and of all such things this is the chief. If after that you may choose to tell her your wishes, of course you can do so."

"It will not be much good after you have set her against me."

"Mr. Dale, you have no right to say such things to me, and you are very unjust in doing "I don't know whether Bell has been well so. If you think that I have set my girls against brought up; but in such a matter as this nobody's you, it will be much better that we should leave wishes would weigh a feather with her; and, in- Allington altogether. I have been placed in deed, I could not take upon myself even to ex- circumstances which have made it difficult for press a wish. To you I can say that I should me to do my duty to my children; but I have have been very happy if she could have regarded endeavored to do it, not regarding my own perher cousin as you wish her to do." sonal wishes. I am quite sure, however, that it "You mean that you are afraid to tell her would be wrong in me to keep them here, if I so ?" am to be told by you that I have taught them

"I am afraid to do what I think is wrong, if to regard you unfavorably. Indeed, I can not you mean that." suffer such a thing to be said to me."

"I don't think it would be wrong, and therefore I shall speak to her myself."

"You must do as you like about that, Mr. Dale; I can't prevent you. I shall think you wrong to harass her on such a matter, and I fear also that her answer will not be satisfactory to you. If you choose to tell her your opinion, you must do so. Of course I shall think you wrong, that's all."

Mrs. Dale's voice as she said this was stern enough, and so was her countenance. She could not forbid the uncle to speak his mind to his niece, but she specially disliked the idea of any interference with her daughter. The squire got up and walked about the room, trying to compose himself that he might answer her rationally, but without anger.

"May I go now?" said Mrs. Dale. "May you go? Of course you may go if you like it. If you think that I am intruding upon you in speaking to you of the welfare of your two girls, whom I endeavor to regard as my own daughters--except in this, that I know they have never been taught to love me-if you think that it is an interference on my part to show anxiety for their welfare, of course you may go." "I did not mean to say any thing to hurt you, Mr. Dale."

"Hurt me!

What does it signify whether I am hurt or not? I have no children of my own, and of course my only business in life is to provide for my nephews and nieces. I am an old fool if I expect that they are to love me in return, and if I venture to express a wish I am interfering and doing wrong! It is hard, very hard. I know well that they have been brought up to dislike me, and yet I am endeavoring to do my duty by them."

"Mr. Dale, that accusation has not been deserved. They have not been brought up to dislike you. I believe that they have both loved and respected you as their uncle; but such love

All this Mrs. Dale said with an air of decision, and with a voice expressing a sense of injury received, which made the squire feel that she was very much in earnest.

"Is it not true," he said, defending himself, "that in all that relates to the girls you have ever regarded me with suspicion?"

"No, it is not true." And then she corrected herself, feeling that there was something of truth in the squire's last assertion. "Certainly not with suspicion," she said. "But as this matter has gone so far, I will explain what my real feelings have been. In worldly matters you can do much for my girls, and have done much." "And wish to do more," said the squire.

"I am sure you do. But I can not on that account give up my place as their only living parent. They are my children, and not yours. And even could I bring myself to allow you to act as their guardian and natural protector, they would not consent to such an arrangement. You can not call that suspicion."

"I can call it jealousy."

"And should not a mother be jealous of her children's love?"

During all this time the squire was walking up and down the room with his hands in his trowsers pockets. And when Mrs. Dale had last spoken, he continued his walk for some time in silence.

"Perhaps it is well that you should have spoken out," he said.

"The manner in which you accused me made it necessary."

"I did not intend to accuse you, and I do not do so now; but I think that you have been, and that you are, very hard to me-very hard indeed. I have endeavored to make your chil dren, and yourself also, sharers with me in such prosperity as has been mine. I have striven to add to your comfort and to their happiness. I am most anxious to secure their future welfare. You would have been very wrong had you de

clined to accept this on their behalf; but I think | hindered by some excess of emotion, or unable that in return for it you need not have begrudged to find the words which were necessary for the me the affection and obedience which generally expression of his meaning. follows from such good offices."

"Mr. Dale, I have begrudged you nothing of this."

"I am hurt-I am hurt," he continued. And she was surprised by his look of pain even more than by the unaccustomed warmth of his words. "What you have said has, I have known, been the case all along. But though I had felt it to be so, I own that I am hurt by your open words."

"Because I have said that my own children must ever be my own?"

"Ah, you have said more than that. You and the girls have been living here, close to me, for-how many years is it now?-and during all those years there has grown up for me no kindly feeling. Do you think that I can not hear, and see, and feel? Do you suppose that I am a fool and do not know? As for yourself, you would never enter this house if you did not feel yourself constrained to do so for the sake of appearances. I suppose it is all as it should be. Having no children of my own, I owe the duty of a parent to my nieces; but I have no right to expect from them in return either love, regard, or obedience. I know I am keeping you here against your will, Mary. I won't do so any longer." And he made a sign to her that she was to depart.

As she rose from her seat her heart was softened toward him. In these latter days he had shown much kindness to the girls-a kindness that was more akin to the gentleness of love than had ever come from him before. Lily's fate had seemed to melt even his sternness, and he had striven to be tender in his words and ways. And now he spoke as though he had loved the girls, and had loved them in vain. Doubtless he had been a disagreeable neighbor to his sister-in-law, making her feel that it was never for her personally that he had opened his hand. Doubtless he had been moved by an unconscious desire to undermine and take upon himself her authority with her own children. Doubtless he had looked askance at her from the first day of her marriage with his brother. She had been keenly alive to all this since she had first known him, and more keenly alive to it than ever since the failure of those efforts she had made to live with him on terms of affection, made during the first year or two of her residence at the Small House. But, nevertheless, in spite of all, her heart bled for him now. She had gained her victory over him, having fully held her own position with her children; but now that he complained that he had been beaten in the struggle, her heart bled for him.

"My brother," she said, and as she spoke she offered him her hands, "it may be that we have not thought as kindly of each other as we should have done."

"I have endeavored," said the old man. "I have endeavored-" And then he stopped, either

"Let us endeavor once again-both of us." "What, begin again at near seventy! No, Mary, there is no more beginning again for me. All this shall make no difference to the girls. As long as I am here they shall have the house. If they marry, I will do for them what I can. I believe Bernard is much in earnest in his suit, and if Bell will listen to him she shall still be welcomed here as mistress of Allington. What you have said shall make no difference-but as to beginning again, it is simply impossible."

After that Mrs. Dale walked home through the garden by herself. He had studiously told her that that house in which they lived should be lent, not to her, but to her children, during his lifetime. He had positively declined the offer of her warmer regard. He had made her understand that they were to look on each other almost as enemies; but that she, enemy as she was, should still be allowed the use of his munificence, because he chose to do his duty by his nieces!

"It will be better for us that we shall leave it," she said to herself as she seated herself in her own arm-chain over the drawing-room fire.

CHAPTER XXXVIII.

DOCTOR CROFTS IS CALLED IN.

MRS. DALE had not sat long in her drawingroom before tidings were brought to her which for a while drew her mind away from that question of her removal. "Mamma," said Bell, entering the room, "I really do believe that Jane has got scarlatina." Jane, the parlor-maid, had been ailing for the last two days, but nothing serious had hitherto been suspected.

Mrs. Dale instantly jumped up. "Who is with her?" she asked.

It appeared from Bell's answer that both she and Lily had been with the girl, and that Lily was still in the room. Whereupon Mrs. Dale ran up stairs, and there was on the sudden a commotion in the house. In an hour or so the village doctor was there, and he expressed an opinion that the girl's ailment was certainly scarlatina. Mrs. Dale, not satisfied with this, sent off a boy to Guestwick for Dr. Crofts, having herself maintained an opposition of many years' standing against the medical reputation of the apothecary, and gave a positive order to the two girls not to visit poor Jane again. She herself had had scarlatina, and might do as she pleased. Then, too, a nurse was hired.

All this changed for a few hours the current of Mrs. Dale's thoughts: but in the evening she went back to the subject of her morning conversation, and before the three ladies went to bed they held together an open council of war upon the subject. Dr. Crofts had been found to be away from Guestwick, and word had been sent

on his behalf that he would be over at Allington early on the following morning. Mrs. Dale had almost made up her mind that the malady of her favorite maid was not scarlatina, but had not on that account relaxed her order as to the absence of her daughters from the maid's bedside.

"Let us go at once," said Bell, who was even more opposed to any domination on the part of her uncle than was her mother. In the discussion which had been taking place between them the whole matter of Bernard's courtship had come upon the carpet. Bell had kept her cousin's offer to herself as long as she had been able to do so; but since her uncle had pressed the subject upon Mrs. Dale, it was impossible for Bell to remain silent any longer. "You do not want me to marry him, mamma; do you?" she had said, when her mother had spoken with some show of kindness toward Bernard. In answer to this, Mrs. Dale had protested vehemently that she had no such wish, and Lily, who still held to her belief in Dr. Crofts, was almost equally animated. To them all the idea that their uncle should in any way interfere in their own views of life, on the strength of the pecuniary assistance which they had received from him, was peculiarly distasteful. But it was especially distasteful that he should presume to have even an opinion as to their disposition in marriage. They declared to each other that their uncle could have no right to object to any marriage which either of them might contemplate as long as their mother should approve of it. The poor old squire had been right in saying that he was regarded with suspicion. He was so regarded. The fault had certainly been his own, in having endeavored to win the daughters without thinking it worth his while to win the mother. The girls had unconsciously felt that the attempt was made, and had vigorously rebelled against it. It had not been their fault that they had been brought to live in their uncle's house, and made to ride on his ponies and to eat partially of his bread. They had so eaten, and so lived, and declared themselves to be grateful. The squire was good in his way, and they recognized his goodness; but not on that account would they transfer to him one jot of the allegiance which as children they owed to their mother. When she told them her tale, explaining to them the words which their uncle had spoken that morning, they expressed their regret that he should be so grieved; but they were strong in assurances to their mother that she had been sinned against, and was not sinning.

"Let us go at once," said Bell.

"It is much easier said than done, my dear." "Of course it is, mamma; else we shouldn't be here now. What I mean is this-let us take some necessary first step at once. It is clear that my uncle thinks that our remaining here should give him some right over us. I do not say that he is wrong to think so. Perhaps it is natural. Perhaps, in accepting his kindness, we ought to submit ourselves to him. If that be so, it is a conclusive reason for our going."

"Could we not pay him rent for the house," said Lily, "as Mrs. Hearn does? You would like to remain here, mamma, if you could do that?"

"But we could not do that, Lily. We must choose for ourselves a smaller house than this, and one that is not burdened with the expense of a garden. Even if we paid but a moderate rent for this place we should not have the means of living here."

"Not if we lived on foast and tea?" said Lily, laughing.

"But I should hardly wish you to live upon toast and tea; and indeed I fancy that I should get tired of such a diet myself."

"Never, mamma," said Lily. "As for me, I confess to a longing after mutton-chops; but I don't think you would ever want such vulgar things."

"At any rate it would be impossible to remain here," said Bell. "Uncle Christopher would not take rent from mamma; and even if he did, we should not know how to go on with our other arrangements after such a change. No; we must give up the dear old Small House."

"It is a dear old house," said Lily, thinking, as she spoke, more of those late scenes in the garden, when Crosbie had been with them in the autumn months, than of any of the former joys of her childhood.

"After all, I do not know that I should be right to move," said Mrs. Dale, doubtingly.

"Yes, yes," said both the girls at once. "Of course you will be right, mamma; there can not be a doubt about it, mamma. If we can get any cottage, or even lodgings, that would be better than remaining here, now that we know what uncle Christopher thinks of it."

"It will make him very unhappy," said Mrs. Dale.

But even this argument did not in the least move the girls. They were very sorry that their uncle should be unhappy. They would endeavor to show him by some increased show of affection that their feelings toward him were not unkind. Should he speak to them they would endeavor to explain to him that their thoughts toward him were altogether affectionate. But they could not remain at Allington increasing their load of gratitude, seeing that he expected a certain payment which they did not feel themselves able to render.

"We should be robbing him if we staid here," Bell declared; "willfully robbing him of what he believes to be his just share of the bargain."

So it was settled among them that notice should be given to their uncle of their intention to quit the Small House of Allington.

And then came the question as to their new home. Mrs. Dale was aware that her income was at any rate better than that possessed by Mrs. Eames, and therefore she had fair ground for presuming that she could afford to keep a house at Guestwick. "If we do go away, that is what we must do," she said.

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