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her every thing that the most anxious and fearful love could suggest; and, with a mind full of forebodings too darkly to be realised hereafter, I hastened to the nearest seaport, and set sail for France.

past, and I shall not be with you; perhaps, I shall not be upon the earth!' At that thought I could have called unto the grave to open for me. Her unaccountable and lengthened silence, in spite of all the urgency and entreaties of my letters for a reply, filled me with presenti

God, they were nothing to the truth!

"When I arrived at Toulouse my mother was much better, but still in a very uncertain and dangerous statements the most fearful. Oh, God-oh, of health. I stayed with her for more than a month, during which time every post brought me a line from Gertrude, and bore back a mes sage from my heart to hers' in re


This was no mean consolation, more especially when each letter spoke of increasing health and strength. At the month's end, I was preparing to return-my mother was slowly recovering, and I no longer had any fears on her account; but, there are links in our destiny fearfully interwoven with each other, and ending only in the anguish of our ultimate doom. The day before that fixed for my departure, I had been into a house where an epidemic disease raged; that night I complained of oppressive and deadly illness-before morning I was in a high fever.


"At last I arrived at -: my carriage stopped at the very housemy whole frame was perfectly frozen with dread-I trembled from limb to limb-the ice of a thousand winters seemed curdling through my blood. The bell rang-once, twice-no answer-I would have leaped out of the carriage-I would have forced an entrance, but I was unable to move. A man fettered and spell-bound by an incubus, is less helpless than I was. At last, an old female I had never seen before, appeared.

"Where is she? How!' I could utter no more-my eyes were fixed upon the inquisitive and frightened countenance opposite to my own. Those eyes, I thought, might have said all that my lips could not; I was deceived-the old woman understood me no more than I did her: another

face-it was that of a girl, who had been one of our attendants. Will you believe, that at that sight, the sight of one I had seen before, and could associate with the remembrance of the breathing, the living, the present Gertrude, a thrill of joy flashed across me-my fears seemed to vanish-my spell to cease?

'During the time I was sensible of my state, I wrote constantly to Gertrude, and carefully concealed my ill-person appeared-I recognised the ness; but for several days I was delirious. When I recovered, I called eagerly for my letters there were none:none! I could not believe I was yet awake; but days still passed on, and not a line from England from Gertrude. The instant I was able, I insisted upon putting horses to my carriage; I could bear no longer the torture of my suspense. By the most rapid journeys my debility would allow me to bear, I arrived in England. I travelled down to by the same road that I had gone over with her! the words of her foreboding, at that time, sank like ice into my heart, 'You will travel this road again before many months are

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"I sprang from the carriage; I caught the girl by the robe. Your mistress,' said I, 'your mistress-she is well-she is alive-speak, speak?' The girl shrieked out; my eagerness, and, perhaps, my emaciated and altered appearance, terrified her; but she had the strong nerves of youth, and was soon re-assured. She requested

me to step in, and she would tell me all. My wife (Gertrude always went by that name) was alive, and, she believed, well, but she had left that place some weeks since. Trembling, and still fearful, but in heaven, comparatively to my former agony, I followed the girl and the old woman into the house.

ignorant practitioners of the place;
they tried their nostrums without
success; her madness increased; her
attendants, with that superstitious
horror of insanity common to the
lower classes, became more and more
violently alarmed; the landlady in-
sisted on her removal; and-and-I
told you, Pelham-I told you—they
sent her away-sent her to a mad-
house! All this I listened to!-all !-
ay, and patiently. I noted down the
address of her present abode; it was
about the distance of twenty miles
I ordered fresh horses

"The former got me some water.
'Now,' said I, when I had drunk a
long and hearty draught, 'I am ready
to hear all-my wife has left this
house, you say-for what place?'
The girl hesitated and looked down;
the old woman, who was somewhat and set off immediately.
deaf, and did not rightly understand
my questions, or the nature of the per-
sonal interest I had in the reply, an-
swered, What does the gentleman
want? the poor young lady who was
last here? Lord help her!'

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"What of her?' I called out in a new alarm. What of her? Where has she gone? Who took her away?' "Who took her!' mumbled the old woman, fretful at my impatient tone; who took her? why, the mad doctor to be sure!'

"I heard no more; my frame could support no longer the agonies my mind had undergone; I fell lifeless on the ground.

"When I recovered, it was at the dead of the night. I was in bed, the old woman and the girl were at my side. I rose slowly and calmly. You know, all men who have ever suffered much, know the strange anomalies of despair the quiet of our veriest anguish. Deceived by my bearing, I learned by degrees from my attendants, that Gertrude had some weeks since betrayed certain symptoms of insanity; that these, in a very few hours, arose to an alarming pitch. From some reason the woman could not explain, she had, a short time before, discarded the companion I had left with her; she was, therefore, alone among servants. They sent for the


"I arrived there at day-break. was a large, old house, which, like a French hotel, seemed to have no visible door: dark and gloomy, the pile appeared worthy of the purpose to which it was devoted. It was a long time before we aroused any one to answer our call; at length I was ushered into a small parlour-how minutely I remember every article in the room!-what varieties there are in the extreme passions ! sometimes the same feeling will deaden all the senses-sometimes render them a hundredfold more acute!

"At last, a man of a smiling and rosy aspect appeared. He pointed to a chair-rubbed his hands-and begged me to unfold my business; few words sufficed to do that. I requested to see his patient; I demanded by what authority she had been put under his care. The man's face altered. He was but little pleased with the nature of my visit. The lady,' he said, coolly, 'had been entrusted to his care, with an adequate remuneration, by Mr. Tyrrell; without that gentleman's permission, he could not think even of suffering me to see her.' I controlled my passion; I knew something, if not of the nature of private madhouses, at least of that of mankind. I claimed his patient as my wife: I expressed myself

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obliged by his care, and begged his acceptance of a further remuneration, which I tendered, and which was eagerly accepted. The way was now cleared-there is no hell to which a golden branch will not win your admittance.

"The man detained me no longer; he hastened to lead the way. We passed through various long passages; sometimes the low moan of pain and weakness came upon my ear-sometimes the confused murmur of the idiot's drivelling soliloquy. From one passage, at right angles with the one through which we proceeded, broke a fierce and thrilling shriek; it sank at once into silence-perhaps beneath the lash!

"We were now in a different department of the building-all was silence-hushed-deep-breathless this seemed to me more awful than the terrible sounds I had just heard. My guide went slowly on, sometimes breaking the stillness of the dim gallery by the jingle of his keys sometimes by a muttered panegyric on himself and his humanity. I neither heeded nor answered him.

"We read in the annals of the Inquisition, of every limb, nerve, sinew of the victim, being so nicely and accurately strained to their utmost, that the frame would not bear the additional screwing of a single hairbreadth. Such seemed my state. We came to a small door, at the right hand; it was the last but one in the passage. We paused before it. 'Stop,' said I, for one moment;' and I was so faint and sick at heart, that I leaned against the wall to recover my self, before I let him open the door: when he did, it was a greater relief than I can express, to see that all was utterly dark. 'Wait, Sir,' said the guide, as he entered; and a sullen noise told me that he was unbarring the heavy shutter.

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morning broke in: a dark figure was stretched upon a wretched bed, at the far end of the room. She raised herself at the sound. She turned her face towards me; I did not fall, nor faint, nor shriek; I stood motionless, as if fixed into stone: and yet it was Gertrude upon whom I gazed. Oh, Heaven! who but myself could have recognised her? Her cheek was as the cheek of the dead-the hueless skin clung to the bone-the eye was dull and glassy for one moment; the next it became terribly and preternaturally bright-but not with the ray of intellect, or consciousness, or recognition. She looked long and hard at me; a voice, hollow and broken, but which still penetrated my heart, came forth through the wan lips, that scarcely moved with the exertion. 'I am very cold,' it said— but if I complain, you will beat me.' She fell down again upon the bed, and hid her face.

"My guide, who was leaning carelessly by the window, turned to me with a sort of smirk-This is her way, sir,' he said; her madness is of a very singular description: we have not, as yet, been able to discover how far it extends; sometimes she seems conscious of the past, sometimes utterly oblivious of everything: for days she is perfectly silent, or, at least, says nothing more than you have just heard; but, at times, she raves so violently, that-that-but I never use force where it can be helped.

"I looked at the man, but I could not answer, unless I had torn him to pieces on the spot. I turned away hastily from the room: but I did not quit the house without Gertrude-I placed her in the carriage, by my side

notwithstanding all the protestations and fears of the keeper; these were readily silenced by the sum I gave him; it was large enough to have liberated half his household. In fact, I gathered from his conversation,

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