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were beheld with new eyes-the eyes of a creat- | introduction in society had taken place beure new-bound; the condition which silly folk tween them. call being "in love."

nature.

It has its sillinesses-no one will deny; its weaknesses and madnesses; but it has its divine side too, chiefly because then, and not till then, comes the complete absorption of self into some other being dearer and better, higher and nobler than one's self, or imagined so; which is the foundation of every thing divine in human If men or women are ever good at all -ever heroic, unselfish, self-denying - they will be so when they first fall in love; and if the love be worthy, that goodness will take root and grow. As a tree is known by its fruits, so a noble love, be it happy or unhappy, ennobles a whole life. And I think no friends-no parents especially if they are real friends, real parents, true as tender, generous as wise, can see two young people standing at the enchanted gate without a prayerful thankfulness; ay, thankfulness. For it is the gate of life to them, whatever be the end.

Neither friends nor kindred stood by these four to watch or warn them, to help or to hinder their footsteps, in entering this unknown paradise; they walked into it deliberately, day by day and hour by hour, from that first Sunday night when Julius Stedman lay on the Misses Kenderdine's sofa, talking to one and gazing at the other, with all his heart both in his lips and eyes.

"But we know all about them nevertheless," argued Edna. "I quite well remember that when I was urged to send for Dr. Young to you, and found he had died suddenly, his successor was very highly recommended. It must have been the same Dr. Stedman. Had I sent, and had he attended you in the fever, how very funny it would have been!"

"Yes, indeed. Suppose we tell him what a near escape he had of either killing or curing me!"

"I think not, dear. As you say, there is no necessity for them to know any thing about us. I do not mean even to tell them that we live at Kensington; but it is a satisfaction to know something about Dr. Stedman, and it warrants us in being kind and civil a little to that poor sick lad-he looks no more than a lad. And how very ill he seemed this morning!" So Edna reasoned with herself, most simply and sincerely; as she drifted-they all drifted into that frank association, which, the first barrier being broken, was sure to come to people living in the same house, having nothing in the wide world to do but to go out and come in, and watch each other's goings out and comings in, innocently enough; but yet with a certain interest that appeared to waken up into new life the whole party, especially the invalids.

For Letty was a, little of an invalid again. She took a slight chill; and Dr. Stedman prescribed for her, in a very reticent, formal, but still pleasant but friendly way, which further helped on the intimacy between them. And as for Edna, her chief friend, as she openly declared, was Julius. He took to her suddenly and completely, with a kind of childlike dependence, so affectionately persistent that there was no withstanding it. Soon it became quite natural for him to send for her in to sit with him when his brother went out, to beg her to accompany them and "see that nothing happened to them" in the daily walk that Will shortly began to insist upon, first round the garden, and gradually lengthening, to the total abolition of the Bath-chair. He talked and jested with her alternately, for she was a merry as well as earnest little woman: he tyrannized over her, making her see to his little comforts, which she did in quite a motherly, or, rather, as he declared, a "grandmotherly" way; sometimes he

He was the grand foundation of the acquaintance, the corner-stone which seemed to make it all safe and right and natural. The sacredness of sickness was upon him and around him; for after the exertion of that night he fell back considerably, and for some days made his brother and his friends-in the anxiety they grew into friends-very miserable about him. The Misses Kenderdine were by no means strong-minded women, to fly in the face of the world, and make acquaintance with, or suffer themselves to be made acquaintances by, any stray young man they happened to meet. They had a keen sense of decorum; but then it was the decorum of true womanliness, the pure simplicity of soul which sees no harm in things not really harmful; the sweet dignity of maidenhood, which, feeling that, known or unknown, met or unmet, there can be to any woman but one man alive who is a possible husband, regards the rest of the sex with a gentle kindness-a placid indifference—even presumed to tease her, but all in such nothing more.

At least such was Edna's condition, and by the strong influence of her character she turned Letty into the same, or an imitation of the same, for the time being. After a long consultation between themselves, the sisters agreed that it would be ridiculous in them to stand aloof from the poor sick fellow in the next room, and his grave, anxious brother, who seemed wholly absorbed in. nursing him, because these happened to be young men, and they themselves young women; and no regular

frank, boyish, and yet perfectly gentlemanly fashion, that the result was inevitable-Edna grew exceedingly fond of him.

"Fond of" is the word, that gentle tenderness which almost invariably, though not always, precludes the possibility of any thing more.

This firm alliance, open and free, between Julius and Edna, made things progress amazingly, and threw the two others together more than Letty's sister would, a week ago, have dared to risk. But then, Dr. Stedman, the more she knew of him, seemed the more unlikely to fall

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Julius had his wish, and made sketches innumerable, sometimes open, sometimes surreptitious, of her flexible figure and lovely face. Of evenings he used to repeat them from memory, and make compositions out of them. Dr. Stedman was called out of his medical researches for endless criticism upon Miss Kenderdine

into the ranks of Letty's victims, being exceed- | least for a long time. In the eyes of men, probingly sedate and middle-aged for his years, and ably for always. apparently not at all disposed to make the best of his opportunities. He would walk by Letty's side for hours without detaching her from the others, or talking to her very much himself; he seemed to like looking at her as any man might, and that was all. Obviously he was incapable of flirtation, did not seem to understand what it meant, carried on all conversations with the sisters in the most open, grave, and courteous earnest; as Letty declared, it would have been quite impossible for her to set up a flirtation with him, even had she tried.

To do her justice, she did not try. She too was subdued by the shadow of heavy sickness, which she had so lately escaped, and which still hung over the two brothers. Her sympathy was aroused; she thought less of herself and her charms, and was consequently more charming than she had ever been in her life.

they always called her Miss Kenderdine, and her sister Miss Edna, though why, nobody knew -as the gardener's daughter

"Gowned in pure white that fitted to the shape,

Holding a branch to fix it back."

Miss Kenderdine in medieval costume, as Kreimhild in the Niebelungenlied, and Miss Kenderdine, with her hat off, and sea-weeds in her hair, standing with the tide rolling in upon her feet, musing pensively with head bent forward-a veritable Ariadne of Naxos.

"That's the best, I think," said Will, whose comments were always sharp, short, and decisive.

Did the young men see and feel it? this extraordinary fascination, half of soul, half of sense, which breathes in the very atmosphere "I think so too," replied the other, lingering of a beautiful woman, if she has any thing wo-over his work with an artist's delight. "There manly in her at all. And Letty had a good is a wonderful deal of the Ariadne in her face deal. There was in her not a particle of ill- naturally." nature, that " envy, malice, and all uncharita- "Yes. The features are of the true Greek bleness," which women have sometimes sore type-sensuous without being sensual, pleasureneed to pray against. She was always gentle loving, but not coarse. She ought to marry a and lady-like, and extremely sweet-tempered. rich man, and then she would do uncommonly If taken altogether, her character was chiefly well." made up of negatives, her beauty was a thing so positive that it supplied all deficiencies, at

"Probably; so would most women," said Julius, with come sharpness.

For,

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Ay, it's like her; a true Ariadne face- ties shown to Letty; it must be sincere, since that, Theseus lost, would take up very comfort-it was shown to a poor, plain, little schoolmisably with Bacchus." tress. She had taken care to let their new friends know they were only schoolmistresses, teaching tradesmen's daughters in a London suburb-so much, no more; and she had noticed with approbation that neither brother had made the slightest further inquiry; nor had their respective positions in life, or pecuniary affairs, or family connections, been again referred to.

"Horrible!" cried the artist. "I never knew such a matter-of-fact, abominably blunt fellow as you. You might as well say that if Miss Kenderdine were disappointed in love she would take to drinking."

"She might. I have seen some terrible cases of female Bacchants under similar circumstances. But I beg your pardon. You need not tell her I said so. Besides, she is never likely to be disappointed in love," added the doctor, as he put down the sketch-book, and ceased the conversation.

Thus they spent day after day, these four young people, in as complete an Arcadia as if there were no such a place as the common, working-day world, no sound of which ever reached them. This little Isle of Wight, which was not then what it is now, but far simpler, far lonelier, far lovelier-though it is lovely yet

It was the only conversation that during the first fortnight the brothers held concerning their new acquaintances. Indeed, there was not time, for, excepting the late working hours--might have been an enchanted island of the after nine or ten o'clock-scarcely an hour passed when the occupants of the two parlors did not meet, or sit waiting, expectant of the chance of meeting. Not that any walks or talks were purposely or systematically planned -still they always seemed to come about, and at length both sides seemed to make reasons or excuses for them.

sea-an Atlantis, such as weary mariners sailed after in vain-where no one toiled and no one suffered; no one hated, or quarreled, or betrayed; but all within was as sweet and peaceful as without, and where these young people seemed to live a life as innocent as the birds, and as peaceful as the primroses.

Edna

Letty even forgot her new bonnet. "We are just a lot of children out on a never took that expedition to Ryde; it seemed holiday," said Julius one day, when they were a pity to waste a day thereon; and for two all sitting eating their combined lunch on a Sundays more the sisters went contentedly to primrose bank, with larks singing madly over-church in their winter's clothes. But it was head, the salt wind freshening all their faces, and far away the outline of white cliffs and blue sea stretching into infinite brightness-infinite peace. "Just mere children, Miss Edna, and oh, do let us enjoy ourselves as such. We shall have hard enough work when we get home."

“That is true,” said Edna, with a half sigh; and she too gave herself up to the enjoyment of the moment.

spring in both their hearts all the while.

tain country walk Edna discussed eagerly with Julius that celebrated historical fact, which he had tried to illustrate by a large cartoon in the previous year's exhibition at Westminster Hall.

"Did you compete for the prizes ?" she asked, walking along by his side, while the others went on ahead, this being their usual way, because Letty disliked being hindered with Julius's still feeble steps.

This was, they agreed, the most wonderful spring they had ever seen. The primroses were so large; the hyacinths so innumerable and intensely blue, and the trees came into leaf with such especial luxuriance-all in a minute, as it seemed; some days you could almost see them growing. The twenty-ninth of May the oaks were full enough to shelter a None the less enjoyable that it was, strange-moderate-sized King Charles; and on a cerly enough, the first time in their lives that these two young women had had any frank association with men-good, pleasant, clever men. To Letty the opposite sex had always come in the form of lovers-not always satisfactory, especially in the amazing plurality with which they had blessed Letitia Kenderdine; while Edna knew nothing about men at all. That cheerful, frank intercourse-social, moral, and intellectual-which, within limits, does both sexes a world of good, was to her not only a novelty, but an exceeding pleasure. She was not a stupid woman—indeed it sometimes dawned upon her that she might have a few brains of her own, since she could so readily "Perhaps other people-Will especiallyenter into the talk of these two men, who both, think me cleverer than I am. I don't know in their way, were undoubtedly clever men- how it is," added he, mournfully, "but I althoughtful, original, and with no folly or coarse-ways seem to miss the exact point of success. ness about them, such as would at once have I get near it, but I never touch it. I am afraid repelled these maidenly gentlewomen. Nei- my life has been-always will be a failure." ther of the brothers attempted in the slightest degree to make love to Letty, and both treated Edna with a grateful politeness, a true heart VOL. XXXVI.-No. 213.-Y

"I tried, but I failed. I always do fail, somehow."

“That is hard. I wonder why it should be so, when you are so very clever," said Edna, innocently.

"Many lives are, that do not show it outside," replied Edna, more sadly than her wont. For she too, on that sunshiny day, with all things

luring her to enjoyment, had become slightly conscious of something lacking. Did the others feel it, she wondered? Was Letty there, as happy as she looked, when stopping with Dr. Stedman on the summit of the steep cliff, up which she herself had managed to climb with Julius, indulging him with the fancy that he was helping her, while, in reality, she supported him-a common fiction.

"My brother and your sister have got on ahead of us," said Julius, pausing, breathless. "They seem capital friends. He admires her extremely, as, indeed, every body must do. She is the most beautiful person we ever saw." "Yes; all people say that. I am quite used to hearing it now."

"Of course you are, which must be my apology for making the remark. The fact is so patent that it ceases to be either a compliment or an impertinence."

"It would never be an impertinence, said as you say it," replied Edna, gently, for she saw that the young man was a little annoyed in some way. "Yet, I will confess, you are the first person whom I ever heard call my sister handsome without its making me angry." "What an odd observation to make! it might be misinterpreted!"

How

"How? That it meant I was jealous of her? Oh, how very funny! What an altogether ridiculous idea! Me jealous of my sister because she is so beautiful, while I myself am-well!"

"Never mind what you are," interrupted Julius, blushing, for he felt he was treading on the very bounds of incivility.

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'Oh, but I do mind a little. I confess I should like to have been handsome, too. But as it can't be, it can't be; and I have now grown quite used to being plain."

Julius was fairly puzzled. It had been his trial, and a not inconsiderable one, in his acquaintance, or friendship, or whatever it was, with this sweet little woman, that she was so plain. To his keen artist eye her want of complexion, of feature, and general brilliancy of effect, was sometimes really annoying. She would have been so attractive, so original, so altogether charming-if only she had been a very little prettier.

Of course he would not betray this, and yet he did not like to tell an untruth, or to pay a silly compliment, which the candid Edna could at once have discovered and scorned. A bright thought struck him, and he compromised with it.

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"I really can not tell," replied Edna, smiling. "In truth I have not the slightest idea."

She might have added-once she thought she would, and then despised herself for such an unsisterly betrayal—that Letty's thoughts did not much matter, as she was not in the habit of thinking long or seriously about any thing. So she held her tongue, and the brotherly earnestness of her companion's next speech shamed her still more.

"I hope she likes him; she ought-you both ought, for I am sure he likes you, which is a great deal to say for Will, as he does not usually get on with young ladies. Yet he is a wonderfully good fellow, Miss Edna; a fine fellow in every way, as you would say if you knew him." "I have no doubt of it."

"Brothers don't often pull together as well as we do, yet we are very unlike, and I have tried him not a little. When I get strong-if I ever do get strong-"

"You certainly will. Dr. Stedman said so to me only yesterday."

You see,

"What was he saying about me? Will and I don't talk much either of or to one another, and I should like to know what he could find to say."

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Edna hesitated a moment whether or not to repeat this, the only bit of confidence that had ever passed between herself and the doctor, and which had at once amazed and puzzled her for the time; it seemed so very uncalled for. Then she thought she would tell it, for it could do no possible harm out of its anxious brotherly affectionateness. And it might even do good, by rousing Julius out of that languid indifference to the future, that loose grasp of life, with its duties and pleasures alike, which was such a sad, nay, a fatal thing to see in a young man of his age.

"It was very little your brother said; only he told me his firm conviction that you had no real disease or feebleness of constitution. You would be all right if you could once be roused out of your melancholy and moody fits by any strong feeling of any kind: made to take care of your health, work hard, though not too hard, and finally marry and settle."

"Did he say that? Did he want me to marry?"

"Very much indeed," replied Edna, laughing. "No match-making mother was ever more earnest on the subject. He said that a good wife would be the best blessing that could. happen to you, and the sooner it happened the better."

"Plain, are you? Every body doesn't think so; Will doesn't. The very first night he saw you, when you sat adding up your accounts, he told me what a nice face you had." "Did he? I am sure I am very much obliged obliged to him!" to him."

"And your sister?" continued Julius, still watching the other two with an intentness that might have seemed peculiar had not Edna now become accustomed to his artist way of staring -"quite in the way of business," as he took

"Were those his words?

Exceedingly

From the tone Edna could hardly tell whether the young man was pleased or vexed, but he blushed extremely: so much so that she began to blush too, and to question within herself whether she had not gone a little too far, and in her sublime grandmotherly indifference had

overstepped the boundary of maidenly propriety. But at this instant the other two returned, and the conversation became general.

Edna was glad Dr. Stedman had called hers "a nice face." It showed that he liked her, and she had rather thought the contrary. Scarcely from any expression or non-expression of the fact, but because he did not seem a person who would easily like any body: but once liking, his fidelity would be sure for life. Or so at least fancied Edna in her simple speculations upon character, in which she was fond of indulging-as most people are who do not take very much trouble in thinking about themselves. She must think about something, and not being given to lofty musings or abstract cogitations, she thought about her neighbors; and for the remainder of that walk about that special neighbor who had been her first acquaintance of the two; since Dr. Stedman had more than once declared, when they were jesting on the subject, that his acquaintance with the sisters dated from the moment when he had been moved to such deep sympathy by Miss Edna's arithmetical woes.

She was glad he liked her, for she liked him; his keen intelligence, less brilliant than Julius's, but solid, thorough, and clear; his honesty of speech and simple unpretending goodness-especially his unvarying goodness to his brother; over whom his anxiety and his patience seemed endless; and Edna could understand it all. In the few private talks she and Dr. Stedman had together, their conversation seemed naturally to turn upon the nearest subject to both their hearts-their respective sister and brother.

Was he falling in love with Letty, or fearing Julius would do so? Either chance was possible, and yet improbable; nay, in the frank pleasure of their intercourse, Edna had almost ceased to dread either catastrophe. Now, as they turned homeward along the cliff, she noticed that Dr. Stedman looked exceedingly thoughtful-almost sad-that he either walked beside Letty, or when she was walking with his brother, he followed her continually with his

eyes.

No wonder. Edna thought she had never seen her sister so irresistibly attractive. If half the men in the world were on their knees at Letty's feet, it would have scarcely been unnatural. And yet and yet—

Edna did not like to own it to herself-it seemed so unkind, unsisterly; still, if, as a perfectly unprejudiced person she had been asked, was Letty the sort of girl likely to carry away captive Dr. Stedman, she should have said no. She should have thought a man with his deep nature would have looked deeper, expected more. With all her love for Letty, Letty would have been the last person in the world whom, had she been a man, she, Edna, would have fallen in love with; if Dr. Stedman had done so, she was a little surprised and-it must be confessed-just a trifle disappointed.

Chiefly so, she argued internally, because she felt certain that Letty would never look at him, and then it might turn out such an unlucky business altogether-the worst yet; for the doctor was not a person to take things easily, or to be played fast and loose with, as was unfortunately rather Letty's way. Edna felt by instinct that he would never be made a slave of-much more likely a tyrant. And if he should be very miserable-break his heart perhaps-that is, supposing men ever do break their hearts for love-Edna would have been so very sorry for him.

She watched him closely all the road home. She did not even ask him to come in to tea, as both brothers seemed half to expect, and as had been done more than once before the quartette started together for their evening ramble. Nevertheless, one was arranged-to look at a wreck which had been washed ashore the previous winter, and which Julius wished to make into a sketch for a possible picture. And though there was some slight opposition from Edna, who thought the walk would be too long for Letty, and from Dr. Stedman, for the same reason as regarded his brother, Julius was obstinate, and carried his point.

So they parted; for the brief parting of an hour or two, which scarcely seemed such at all.

Letty threw off her hat and lay down, with both her arms over her head, in an attitude exquisitely lovely.

"I am quite tired, Edna; that doctor of yours does take such gigantic strides, and he talks on such solid subjects, it quite makes one's head ache to follow him. I wonder why he chose me to walk with, and not you; but these wise men like silly women. I told him so. At least I owned I was silly; but of course he didn't believe it."

"Of course not. But what was he talking about?"

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"Oh, nothing particular," said Letty, with a slightly conscious air. Men all talk alike to me, I fancy."

Edna asked no more questions.

THE MAIDEN'S TEST. A GIRL stood under a holly-tree,

As she tried the country test, Counting the thorns on a holly leaf, To see who loved her best.

"Loves-loves me not"-the test came wrong, And she threw away the holly; And cried, with a pretty pettish pout,

"Your test is naught but folly!"

The leaf was wrong. My test was right,
I prov'd it in a minute:
"I do confess," she quick replied,

"Your test has witchcraft in it.'

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