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offspring of pride and timidity, non without flinching ; but no wellwhich, while it makes one think authenticated instance of heroism, himself an object of universal at- in my opinion, ever came up to that tention, conveys an irresistible im- I exhibited on this memorable occapression that he is some way or sion, when I answered, in a voice other ridiculous. How often have that I almost think was audible, I envied those impudent fellows, looking her almost in the face the whom I saw sailing about the ladies, while—“Indeed I have not that and laughing, chatting, or flirting, honor, madam.” The effect was with as little apprehension as a decisive, my hands became steady, moth flutters round a candle ! I my forehead resumed its natural would have pawned every grain of warmth, the roaring in my ears grasense I had in the world for just as dually subsided, my pulse beat much brass as would have embold- heathfully, and my nerves settled ened me to pick up a lady's fan, or down into something like self-possweeten her tea.

session. My neighbor followed up I had remained in this situation my reply, by reminding me that we just long enough to get into an ago- had been at school together a long ny of perspiration, when my good while ago-though I recollected friend came over to me, with a re- that she was much younger than quest to introduce me to a lady, myself-spoke of many little kindwho sat on the opposite side of the nesses that I had done her at that room. I made fifty excuses, but time, and how vain she was of being all would not do; he had told her the pet of not only the biggest, but of his intention, and it would look the handsomest boy in the school. rude for me to decline. Despair, “You are much altered," said she, for I verily believe it was nothing “and so am I-but I recollected else, gave me sufficient strength to you as soon as you came into the rise from my chair ; my friend led room. I was determined to renew me up to the lady, introduced me, our acquaintance, and to make the pointed to a chair next to her, and first advances—for I remember you left me to my fate. My hands used to be a shy boy.” “Yes," said shook, my forehead became wet I," and I am a shy man, to my with cold dew, my tongue clove to sorrow; but I can still feel delightthe roof of my mouth, and a roar- ed at meeting my little favorite ing in my ears announced that com- again, in the shape of a fine womotion of the nervous system which man”—and I believe the very d-1 always foretells the approach of a got into me, for I seized her hand, nightmare. I attempted to speak, and squeezed it so emphatically that with as little success as I had often she blushed, and smiled mischievhad in trying to call for help in my ously, as I continued begging her sleep, when under the dominion of pardon for not recollecting her, and that foul fiend. Our eyes at length apologizing for being such a shy happened to meet, and there was fellow. The recollection of past something in a little mischievous times and youthful days, the meetsmile, that sparkled in her eye, and ing of old friends, and the recalling played in the corner of her lip, that of early scenes and attachments, called to mind a vision I thought I come over the heart of man, as the remembered to have seen before. spring comes over the face of na“I believe you don't recollect me, ture-waking the early songsters, Mr. Roebuck," said a voice that touching the little birds and blades almost made me jump from my of grass with her magic wand into chair, though it was as low and as sensation, and putting the whole sweet as a distant wood-dove's. I vivifying principle of expansion, have heard men extolled for march- growth,

warmth, life, love, and beauing up to the mouth of a loaded can- ty, into sprightly and exulting activity. As the ice-bound brook sig- the motion of their lips that they nalizes its release from the cold, were talking of me; every word was rigid, inflexible chain of winter by a dagger, and every look a wingits eternal murmurs, so did my en- ed arrow tipt with poison. People, franchisement from the tongue-tied may talk of the rack, the knout, demon of silent stupidity, by an the stake, the bed of Procrustes, overflow of eloquence such as and the vulture of Prometheus, but alarmed iny very self. I reveled all these are nothing compared to in the recollections of the past ; a the agonies of sensitive, bashful dawning intimation of the future man, when he thinks himself an obdanced before my awakened fancy, ject of laughter. distant, obscure, and beautiful. I With a mortal effort, such as I talked like a Cicero of congress, never made before, and never shall whose whole year's stock of elo- again, I got up from my chair, made quence has been frozen up by a my bow, and rushed out of the Lapland winter, and suddenly set room, in a paroxysm of wounded going by a spring thaw—lamented sensibility and unappeasable wrath. my shyness--and again shook her The next day, my merry, pleasant hand most emphatically, to corrobo- friend came to see me, and inquire rate my assertion that I was the how I liked his party, and what I shyest man in the world. I think I thought of my little school-mate. I may truly affirm, that I enjoyed was grim-horribly grim, mystemore of actual existence in one hour rious and incomprehensible ; I was after this recognition, than I had too proud to acknowledge my for the last fifteen years, and was wounds, or to do anything more swimming in the very bosom of than hint at her being a giggling Elysium, when, happening to look thing ; I could not bear to see a towards my merry friend, I caught woman always laughing, nor old him in the very act of laughing at friends that took such liberties with me most inordinately. O reader, if people as some people did. In thou art peradventure a bashful short, I was as crusty as Will Wadman, or, what is still more rare, a dle, after his half year's baking. bashful woman, thou canst tell what “Hey-day !” cried my merry it is to have the cold water of a friend, “which way does that permischievous laugh thrown on the verse weathercock of thine point warm embers of a newly-awakened now? What is the matter with the sentiment just lighting into a blaze. shy gentleman'-hey?” Like the traveller of the Swiss val- " There, there! By heaven I ley, thou wilt find thyself, in one knew it, I knew how it wasI'm single moment, at one single step, not quite so blind as some people transported from the region of flow- think me--I'm not deaf-" ers, fruits, and herbage, to the re- “No, nor dumb either, faithgion of eternal ice—from the glow- I'll say that for you, friend Tom ; ing embraces of laughing spring, to you talked last night for the next the withering grasp of frowning hundred years. But how do you winter.

like my cousin ? She has done I was struck dumb, “and word nothing but talk of you this mornspake never more” that night. My ing—" little school-mate, finding she could “Yes--and she did nothing but get nothing more out of me, laugh at me last night.” Out it changed her seat, and left me alone, came; I could hold no longer. howling---no, not howling-but lost Laugh at you ! with you, you in the silent wilderness of stupefac- mean ; why, you were the merriest tion, where I remained, to see, as I couple in the room. thought, my host and the lady mak- Except yourselves, after she ing themselves right merry ‘at my left me expense. I thought I could tell by “Well, what if we did laughi

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you can't expect to have all the in her company, can do anything laughing to yourself.”

with him. But if she can add to «0 no—by no means-not I; this the miracle of making him sayou may laugh till doomsday ; on- tisfied with himself, his happiness ly I wish you would find somebody and devotion will be complete. else to laugh at.”

From feeling perfectly easy in her “ Somebody else !-Why, what society, I soon began to be very undo you mean, Tom ?

easy. I began to be in love, and a “Why, sir, I mean that you were shy man in love is as great a torlaughing at me, from the moment ment to a woman as he is to himshe left my side," cried I, stalking self, if she cares anything about about the room in great wrath. him. I certainly was something of

“No such thing upon my serious an original in my amour ; for while. honor ; we should both scorn such I used as much pains to hide as ill manners, and particularly to- others to display their love, I took wards you. She was describing the it into my head that the lady ought airs and affectation of a party of to behave as if I were an accepted fashionable upstarts she met in the lover, and eschew all the rest of steam-boat, returning from the great mankind. I was affronted with her northern tour.”

three times a week for some imagi“ What did you keep looking at nary display of indifference ; beme every now and then for ?" came inordinately jealous; and, I

“She was comparing you with confess honestly, played such what you were at school, and say- pricious pranks, that, had she not ing how little you were altered, ex- been the best-tempered creature in cept for the better.'

the world, she would have forbid« Now, Harry, upon your honor, den me her presence. Yet she remember"

treated me with a charming indul“ Upon my honor, then, this is gence, humored my follies, and forthe truth, the whole truth, and no- gave my insolent irritability sooner thing but the truth—except, in- than I could forgive myself. Three deed

several times I swore to myself that “ Except what ?"

I would confess my love and ask “Except that she expressed her her hand, and as often did the fates pleasure of again meeting you, and interpose to prevent me-once in her hope that she should see you the shape of a rainy day, which I often. What say you to paying her thought a good excuse for delay; a morning visit-hey?"

once in the likeness of a hole in my “ With all my heart—for she's a silk stocking, which I observed just fine woman.”

as I was on the point of knocking I repeated' my visits day after at the door, and which so damped day, till I began to feel myself quite my spirits that I turned about and easy in the society of my little went home disconsolate ; and school-fellow, who gained vastly in third time in the semblance of one my good graces ever since I heard of those worthy persons, who lend she thought me so much altered for their wits to such as have money, the better. I remembered, at our and let them into the secret of first interview, she told me how turning it to the best advantage. proud she was in being the favorite He propounded to me a cotton of the biggest and the handsomest speculation, by which a fortune boy in the school ; and if I was would be made, as certain as fate, handsomer now than then, I con- in three months at farthest. cluded, much to my satisfaction, I To tell my readers a secret, the must be a tolerably good-looking management of my property, alfellow. A woman who can make a though of great advantage to my shy, awkward man once feel easy health, had redounded very little

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to the credit of my sagacity, or the part of what remained of my probenefit of my purse. Knowing no- perty ; and a fit of shyness came thing of business myself, I took the over me, that effectually prevented advice of as many people as I could, me from making my purposed deremembering that in a multitude of claration, even if I had been ever counsellors there is safety. Some- so anxious. But I had lost both how or other it happened, however, the intrepidity and the inclination, that, though the advice was always and considered I had now so little good when it was given, it turned fortune remaining, that it would not out always bad in the end, owing to only be imprudent, but presumptuthose unexpected revolutions with ous, to expect a favorable reception which Providence so often shames to a proposal of this nature. I human sagacity, as if in scorn of shut myself up in my room, and the puny prophets who pretend was miserable ; but strange to say,

; to say what will happen to-mor- not half so miserable as when I had row.

By degrees these repeated nothing to trouble me. I neither losses impaired my fortune not a lit- thought of myself, nor my infirmitle ; but I did not mind it, indeed I ties, real or imaginary; but I was rather rejoiced, as these occa- thought of my lady love so intently sional rubs roused me into a whole- that I forgot myself, and, what is some vexation, that kept me from very · remarkable, never had the that stagnant state of mind which I nightmare during the whole period dreaded above all things. It was of my seclusion. Neither did my not until I fell in love, and felt the time hang dead about my neck like want of that delightful confidence a millstone, as it did when I was so which a full purse gives to the ani- perfectly free from all care and all mal man in time of sore tribulation, employment. In short, I had somethat I found reason to regret the di- thing to think of, and that is the minution of my fortune. But now, next best thing to having something when I fancied it stood in the way to do. of my becoming worthy the hand of One day my merry old friend my lady love, I often pondered on came to see me.

" What has bethe means of retrieving my losses, come of you this age,” said he, and this hint of a speculation ef

- and what is the matter that we fectually arrested my attention. have not seen you lately? My Without being too particular, suffice cousin has inquired about you seveit to say that I yielded to the gentle- ral times; so I came to see if you man's infallible prognostics ; I laid were becalmed, according to cusout nearly the whole of my fortune tom-or sick-or sulky-or-but in a cotton speculation, and my what the deuce ails

you friendly adviser declined taking a at my wo-begone countenance. share in the profits, being content “ I am as poor as a rat." with his commissions on the pur- “So much the better ; you have chase.

all your life been suffering the peI had now ample employment be- nalty of riches, and now you will be tween the perplexities of love and good for something. But how ? " the anticipations of money, and set- A cotton speculation !” said I, tled in my own mind that the re- shrugging my shoulders. alizing of the latter should put an

“ Is all gone?" end to the fears and hopes of the “Not quite-I have a few thouformer. I continued my visits to sands left.” the lady, but made no actual de- “ So much the better ; you shall monstration, except by looks and marry my cousin, and we will join actions, until the fall of cotton, and stocks together as merchants. You the consequent downfall of all my shall furnish the capital, and I'll towering hopes. I lost the best manage it."

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"I marry your cousin! When I wholesome, gentle, nay, delightful was rich I had some hopes-now I solicitude. Toil, exertion, and have none. I mean to go to Ameri- economy, became pleasure, because ca."

I had somebody to strive for ; and « Go to the but I say that I found myself every day gaining you shall marry my cousin-that is courage, confidence, strength, and to say, if you love her.”

hilarity, in the busy scuffle I was “ Perdition catch my soul, but — engaged in. I can safely say that,

“Pshaw! none of your heroics during the whole of this period of -do you or do you not ?" delightful anxieties, I never once

“I do, most truly—with all the imagined myself sick ; I had no ardor of youth, and all the stea- more heart-beatings and heartdiness of an old bachelor. And burnings-no tremblings, trepidayet I will not marry her, even if she tions, and cold perspirations—nor is willing.”

was I once ridden by my old

enemy, “No!--why ?"

the nightmare.

When the cares of “She has twice the merit-twice the day were past, I could sit the fortune—and a hundred times down and enjoy the refreshment of the beauty I have ; the balance ease ; and it was delightful, after would be all on one side."

the keen encounters of skill, sa“ Very well, we shall see,” an- gacity, and bargaining, which ocswered he, and away he went, leav- cupied the day, to open my heart ing me in a flutter of timidity and among those I could trust with mý hope. This is not intended for a whole soul, and rely upon with the love tale ; I shall therefore hurry faith of a martyr. over this part of my story. It is By degrees, owing to the good sufficient to say that my little school- management of my merry partner, mate behaved nobly. I went to see and something to my own care and her. “You would have bestowed attention, fortune began to smile your fortune on me when you was upon us, and our acquisitions grarich-I will bestow mine upon you dually grew to exceed all our wants. now you are poor. True it is but lit- Every year now adds to the means tie—but I will make it up in pru- of educating my children well, and dence and affection.” We married, leaving them a competence when I and I entered into trade with my ac- shall be no more.

In short, my tive merry friend. For some years tale is at an end, and its moral comwe toiled through the vexatious rou- pleted. I am now happy in my tine of bargain and sale, buying and wife-happy in my children, who, selling, and not making much for our I am determined, shall never pine, pains. In the meantime little if I can help it, in the enjoyment of flock of boys and girls sprung up perfect ease. I am in excellent about me, and, like the fresh brooks health, almost as gay as my merry and fountains, which attract the partner and friend, and have no fear roots of the old trees that lack re- except that of getting so rich that I freshing moisture, called off my shall be tempted to retire from busignawing anxieties and carking cares ness before I am old enough to entowards objects that excited a more joy a life of ease.


[The following brief history of the un- by every American. We are in the successful attempts lately made by the full enjoyment of all the rich blessings Spanish patriots to bring about a revolu- which they are striving to procure for tion in their oppressed and deyraded coun- their countrymen, and we cannot consistry, will be read with interest and regret tently do less than earnestly wish that

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